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I wish I could stop beating myself up over things...really I do.

Last week was so great. I stuck to my diet perfectly, I really did, and I lost 8 pounds in a week.

But this week has been terrible...I mean haven't "binged" or anything, I've just been actually eating. it's making me miserable.

I haven't weighed myself in a week, I'm too scared to.

I'm hopefully going to the gym tonight...

I'm just so stressed..

Hello everyone. I've been looking for a new ED community and I think I found it. :)

CW: 175 lbs.
HW: 190 lbs.
LW: 155 lbs.
GW1: 170 lbs.
GW2: 150 lbs.
LTGW: 110 lbs.
Height: 5'4"

I've never been diagnosed with ED, I am very good at hiding it, and I've never been able to lose weight dramatically, even when I was eating next to nothing.

I live in England but I'm originally from New York.

Feel free to add me, and if anyone wants to chat on MSN, message me and I'll give you my email.

Stay lovely <3

So my therapist it threatening me. If I lose any more weight I have to go into a residential ed program. I'm not even that thin, but she has this magical number 117 that I'm supposed to stay above and I'm 117 now, so if I go any lower, I'm fucked. But That isn't that low for my height and she isn't a f-ing nutritionist. I have a nutritionist who came nowhere near the same threat. I'm so upset and stressed out! Please help!

im in the middle of a monster binge... not swallowing all of it of course =D
im starting to go back to some of my old ways im not sure if thats a bad or a good thing =/
stay strong ladies and gents xx

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I couldn't bring myself to weigh myself this morning because I haven't been able to go to the bathroom for 4 days now. I feel like a WHALE. I've had fiber cereal, fruit, veggies, multi-vitamins, acidophillis, mineral oil, water, and I've even increased my portions to move things along, and I still can't go. I have no idea what's going on. I'm not currently taking any medications. Has anyone else experienced this due to ana? Without resorting to laxatives, are there any other ways that help?

Hello beautiful ladies! I'm brand new to this community, and to live journal as well. I joined to connect with people with similar feelings, issues and goals that I have. Something to motivate me, and keep me on track when I'm feeling weak. I'm a member of some other similar communities, but what really attracted me to this one is that I see that it is very active - there's a lot of people and a lot of posts.

I update my journal usually once or twice a day. In there I log everything I eat and when. What I did wrong or could do better, and what accomplishments I made that I'm proud of.

Here's my "application":

Height: 5'7"
Current Weight: 135
Highest Weight: 143
Lowest Weight: 125
Short Term Goal Weight: 130
2nd Short Term Goal Weight: 125
3rd Short Term Goal Weight: 120
Long Term Goal Weight: 115
Diagnosis(or what you feel you are): I have binge eating disorder. I've had it for 6 years.
Current "Diet": Less than 1000 calories a day [[ideally less than 800]]. No fat. ESPECIALLY no sweet/sugar foods [[that is what I binge on]]. Only really healthy and mostly catabolic foods. I also drink a lot of green tea, and I am taking 4 "Lipo-6 Hers" diet pills a day as directed on the bottle.

Breakfast: Either one serving of oatmeal [[150 calories]] or one fat free Yoplait yogurt [[100 calories]]. Sometimes a banana or other piece of fruit.
Lunch: A piece of fruit... usually an apple.
Dinner: Usually veggies only. Once or twice a week I will add in 3oz. of lean meat.
Snack(if needed): Grapes [[only 3 calories each]] OR one serving of DRY cheerios [[100 calories]] OR an apple.

In general, I'm pretty disciplined about my diet. [[Of course I have slip-ups like everyone else. And I feel like sh*t when it happens for a long time.]] But what I need to work on is moving my @$$ and getting some exercise!!! I'm so lazy... I always have an "excuse" not to do it. I need motivation for that.

Anyone catch the Victoria's Secret fashion show last night?! My god, I am so jealous of their stomachs and hips.

Have a wonderful day girls!!!

I feel so strong for not giving in today. The best thing is no one knows what I'm doing and probably wont until its too far done. I just found a a friend has gone behind my back and told a boy to stop seeing me. I bet its because im not good enough. This will spur me on, now i have the realisation im unattractive. One day I'll turn round and laugh at them when im thin. anyone got any advice on not giving in to cravings?

food: 2/2
water: 2/2
exercise: 2/2 (45 mins stationary bike)
post: 2/2
challenge: 2/2

total: 10/10
numbers: 6/3/58

had between 525-550 calories today. very happy for myself :) i feel like i've hit a plateau so i ate low today to see if i could break it, but i'll be eating a bit more normally after i hit 130. (ugh i feel so close and yet so far!) i didn't exercise for as long today cause i didn't eat as much and i was feeling a little ill as well. i think i may do some sit-ups because i haven't done any kind of toning exercises in awhile. if not, then tomorrow. hope everyone's day went well! xx

Today was amazing.
1 Pickle
1 large spoonful of Shepard's Pie
- (My aunt made me, I think it was a test.)
1 hot chocolate
And tons of water.

I did really good today. Control is back. It makes me feel amazing. Tomorrow I know will be the same I can do it. I know I can. I've got some wonderful support up now, which helps like you wouldn't believe. Everyone needs support and control and strength. It's something that we all need to succeed, not to mention need simply as human beings.

Keep strong,
You can do it.

xoxo,
Airyckah

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Challenge:2/2

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( Hmm )

10/10 today
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Posting a little early so that I ensure I won't eat anymore and lose my one point for food today ;)

Food: 1/2
Water: 2/2
Exercise: 2/2
Post: 2/2
Challenge: 2/2

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3/?/27

F o o d --> [2|2]
W a t e r --> [2|2]
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C h a l l e n g e --> [0|2]

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So me and my boyfriend broke up.
(for the 5th time)
And you know what,
Im really ok.
So no sorrys or anything like that please.
(:
We broke up because Im an amazing gf and he couldnt believe that so he was always really paranoid and jelous and it just got to the point that our relationship was disfunctional.
Anywaysss...
I was about 108.7 or smthn this AM
Thats good considering my binge yesterday.
How is everyone else doing???

I need a buddy!

I have been taking medicine and I found out today that it's why I've gained so much weight. It increases my appetite. And I find the only way I succeed in losing weight is if I FAST! I need someone to email...very badly. Please and thank you!!

thinalwayswins@gmail.com

Hi girls! I'm new here, but not new to ana and mia :P

Height: 5'7"
CW: 151 ugh
LW: 133
Goal 1: 135
Goal 2: 120

Little bitty intro:
I'm a college student, studying Japanese and French :) I just got back from a year abroad in Japan and OMG the women there are SO THIN. It's unbelievable, I don't understand how they eat all that rice and never gain any weight >_< So, basically, my ultimate goal is to be like my avi, the Japanese rock star Miki Nakashima, and be this beautifully thin amazing person who is also awesome at Japanese ^_^

The problem is, I like food. I like eating food when I'm bored, when I'm sad, and even when I'm happy or with friends. And I know I shouldn't eat so much, and I'm constantly telling myself I'll cut back, but instead I just get lazy and as soon as the munchies come on, I binge and then purge it :\ So I guess I'm closer to mia, than anything else. But I'm not losing any weight!!! Arggh. I was able to lose weight when I didn't purge so often, so I just need to get off my lazy butt and do what I did before--coffee for breakfast, a cup of soup for lunch, and a piece of fruit/glass of fruit juice for dinner.

So, here I am, trying again to get back on track, hopefully being here will help! Stay strong, girls, I can see you have gone through so much, and I respect all of you for it!
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