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Fri, 09 Oct 2009 00:46:07 GMT

Ok, this is just a question. I didn't even ask it my friend did after finding out about my ana. Ok; Do you think you could just stop? And you know what I mean. Like, just stop, quit on ana. Were constantly complainging about food and how ~~hungry~~ we are. Well I said no,but i'm just curious cus it got me thinking. Why we can't because even if I tryed I couldn't. It's the only thing i have now...
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ok thats it
Biie
~em

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Wed, 07 Oct 2009 21:16:13 GMT

Starting a fast tomorow, today was my final hurrah!
I had 1/2 a subway sandwich with grilled chicken, cucumber, and tofu motsarella cheese
1 babana with peanut butter
and a pieceof my friends pickel
lol
I'm going to start the fast tomorow,
I'll probably go for a bike ride later.
if anyone wants to help my s/n is drammaqelsie@aim.com
biie loves<3
=D
~em

Long time, no see...

Tue, 06 Oct 2009 22:54:35 GMT

I'm back.
I seem to be saying that alot...
See my last entry.
ya...
Well I'm back
and on the ana band wagon
O_o makes it sound like a good thing
so far today I've had;
1 strawberry&banana vavianno smoothiefrom starbucks:)
and an apple
...
i told my mom i all ready ate dinner
plus of having divorced parents...
ok
I could really use some support right now.
I'm also asking people toput togather playlists and book lists
about ana/mia
it would help alot!
=I
thnx<3
~Em

I'm backkkk!!!(again...)

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 01:45:43 GMT

yup, im back on the road to ana...i gave up, gained weight, and almost killed myself, nowim back, plz help, and message me Drammaqelsie@aim.com i need an ana buddy! thanks.

Thu, 18 Jun 2009 21:15:07 GMT

UGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WAS DOING JUST FINE! UNTIL MY FREEKIN' DAD CAME HOME! UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He comes in and its all fine, were watching the daily shw, and then! its over! And he insists on puuting on LOST! I then say, ok but i'm going on my computor, you watch it. I JUST DONT FEEL LIKE WATCHING LOST, IT ANOYS ME WHEN I'M STRESSED!! So ofcorfe he puts it on anyway, fine with me. But then he's all explaining stuff, and talking, and i say. I'm not watching, and he just FLIPPS OUT! He's all oh wel then if your not watching nither am I! And I'm like 'no, i jusat don't want to right now, i'll re-watch it later!' Long story short, she then turns off the tv and now wont speak to me! Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just think I should die, i'm stressed enough already! I dont have to deal with this!!!

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thu, 18 Jun 2009 18:20:44 GMT

Whoo! Then english final was super easy!!! It took me like 10 minutes! (exaggeration) And i think i have a stomach virus! Haha funny thing to be happy about, but now i don't have to hide it when i throw up :) well here i found some thinspiration quotes!

"Starving is not pain, it's the cure"
"Bones define who we really are, let them show. "
"'You want food? Look at those THIGHS! "
"The only freedom left is the freedom to starve. "
"Ask me to show you perfect and I will show you a thin person."
"Giving in to food shows weakness, be strong and you will be better than everyone else. "
"Thin is a Skill. "
"Inside us is a thin person struggling to get out, but she is too sedated with a few peices of chocolate cake. "
"Thin has a taste all its own "
"One of life's mysteries is how a 2-pound box of candy can make a woman gain 5 pounds."
"I do eat: only what is needed for . I can't help it that we live in a piggish society where gluttony is the norn, and everyone else is constantly stuffing themselves."
"Every time you say "No Thank you", You say " Yes Please" to Thin "
"The greasy fry, it cannot lie, its truth is written on your thigh," ~ Quinn [from Daria]

HEY!!

Thu, 18 Jun 2009 10:35:34 GMT

Ok! As you may know,i have finals this week. (Yikez!!) And i don't know if i've mentioned this but i havent been eating latley, but it makes me weak and nauseous at the worst time (during the tests) so i'm starting a liquid diet today!! yay! Problem solved! hehehe i feel proud of my self!

ughh!

Thu, 18 Jun 2009 01:47:46 GMT

Ick!! wow today i actually ate dinner, and now i feel sick! I want to throw up.I've taken some lax and i'm going to work out tomorrow. I don't want to eat ever again! I'm such a pig!!!! Yuckk! maby I'll tell my dad I'm not feeling well and then, throw up...

Wed, 17 Jun 2009 15:04:04 GMT

Hey loves<3
ok yesterday i...

binged...and purged...
and TOTALLY pigged out on ~~6 pieces of sushe!!!!~~

so far today i haven't eaten anything, and thats good.
Later on I'm going to work out, maby go for a walk.
I still need to study for my english final, the science final went well...i think.

I found some thinspo!!
Its really nice i like it!
Here's some;
<----- luv this<333 the rest will be posted on __thinspiration

holy shit!!!

Tue, 16 Jun 2009 16:59:42 GMT

wow!
i totally pigged out yesterday!!!!!!
i had

2 (small) pieces of pizza
and a donut

I even felt the urge to purge...but didn't

I will stay strong, and keep going.
I have finals, and stress is going to be so bad!
I am going to try and distract myself with studying and stuff.
So far i haven't eaten anything yet. And hope to keep it that way

Mon, 15 Jun 2009 04:09:58 GMT

Ok, today i didn't totally binge, nor did i just not eat anything...
i had...

1 lightly buttered roll
2 crackers
and a cesar side salad (which i threw up most of...)

i am going to start a 1 week fast, if anyone wants to help, and fast with me, i could use a buddy to chat with daily on here.
much lub
&keep strong<3

xxxoooxxx~em

Sun, 14 Jun 2009 06:07:05 GMT

I AM -
[ x] anorexic but i have bulimic "episodes"
[x] ednos
[x ] bulimic
[ ] living off diet pills
[ ] hungry
[ ]thirsty
[ ] drinking something
[ ] Under 100lbs
[x] wanting to be "under-100-by end of june"
[x] starving yourself
[ ] participating in a fast with other people

PEOPLE -
[ ] ask if i'm anorexic/bulimic
[x] call me fat
[dear god I wish] say i'm too skinny
[x ] say i'm ugly
[x] say i'm pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[ ] force me to eat
[ ] say i eat too much
[ ] wish i'd stop
[x] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic

I WISH -
[x] i was THIN
[x] i had a better body
[x] i didn't have to eat
[x] i could control myself
[X] i was under 100lbs
[x] i could avoid food
[x] i could hide what i am
[x] i wasn't fat
[x] i was pretty
[ ] i could stop

I LOVE -
[x] feeling hungry
[ ] shaking
[ ] being weak, becuase i know i'm losing weight
[x] losing weight
[x] being anorexic/bulimic
[ ] green tea
[ ] diet soda
[x] coffee
[x] laxatives
[ ] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself